I planned to attend mass with my mom and sister but ended up spending the entire morning in my bed instead. The wind was howling all night and I couldn't fall asleep until very late. I have to admit it was actually quite nice waking up to complete silence instead of the usual sounds of kids & a dog, being able to lie in bed all morning without getting up to fix breakfast or get kids ready for school.
I bought flowers for myself yesterday as a token of apology and gratitude. I neglected my heart for too long and I wanted to say I'm sorry. I wasted too much energy fixing my surroundings without fixing myself from within. I must care for my heart and forgive myself first before I can forgive anyone else.
I'm sorry and I love you. Let's start over.
<3
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